its been a month plus since i posted. i've been really busy and really lazy with work and writing reports every wednesday night and handing it in on thursday.

so far, i've gone to the chinese banquet and malay banquet. currently i'm at the pastry department. i didnt turn up for the first day as i overslept. not that i didnt want to attend pastry but i just couldn't wake up. so i got screwed for that hence writing an apology letter to the hotel, executive chef and HR department. so yeah. ending pastry in two days and going to butchery next. i might not be going to butchery but we'll see how it goes.

my results just came out for this term and i passed it, with a 12.39 over 20 average. better than my previous terms. proud but wished i had done better. so thats all about college.

recently, i've been pondering on a lot of things.

1. how my life would be if i was still with jac.
2. how my life would be if i was still in LUCT.
3. how my life would be after graduating from Taylor's College.
4. Will i ever find another true love again?

p.s. to keesama, im sorry for not replying earlier but here it is, myflashbox.
to XY, i miss chatting with you too. i really do. this is the most vulnerable time now. i feel like shit. please do msn me if you have the time. really need someone to talk to. thanks.

i dont know why but i feel like crying over the past. it's been haunting me lately and i've been covering up all the sadness inside by tiring myself out in work everyday. i'm always scared of being judged by other people. i just want to be loved again. is that too much to ask for?

i want to be loved again.
rick.